Sometimes I want to take time to stop and think and also watch the beautiful sky, smell the rain and feel the wind. Sometimes I feel that I need to be alone, not lonely but to enjoy my time, notice the buzzing bees, the small children, and the smiling faces. Sometimes I want to punish myself to see the dawn before the rest of the world. Sometimes I wonder What is permanent in this life? My scars, my faults, my insecurities... Are they permanent? Those lazy Sundays with a late morning sip of tea and some daydreaming... Are they permanent? Sometimes I want to be an Ocean in a droplet which can be calm and still or rough and rigid but at the end of the day, it is always beautiful. Sometimes I want to be a mystery and an open book at the same time and talk to myself as I would to someone I love. Sometimes I want to go back to the water of my home and be surrounded by the hills and conifers. Sometimes I wish anyone could look over my broken fences and admire the flowers of my garden. ...